Sometimes you feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, like you’re in the middle of a tornado, everything around you out of control, and all you can think is “what am I doing here?”
Today was one of those days – sad news last night, nasty surprise this morning, weird and hectic day, argumentative behaviour, frustration, anger. I got home today and all I felt was that things were just getting too much. What the heck was all that? What am I doing here? Where is it gonna lead to? And what does it all mean? Sometimes it feels like you are watching it all but it doesn’t seem real. It’s all too much.
We’ve all had those days, haven’t we? And more times than we can count as well. And while you know that things always change, nothing ever stays the same, in the moment, when you’re right in the middle of it, it’s just hard to focus on that little light far in front of you.
Days like these remind me that, I’ve made it through this far, and I will make it through this time. The love of the people I deeply care about, my belief that something beyond us is there to guide us, my art supplies and the power they give me, all bring me the strength to see ahead, pick myself up when I stumble and fall, and keep going.
There’s nothing religious, cultural or even spiritual in the traditional sense in this. It’s all to do with your belief in yourself, in your worth, in your strength and how you relate to the world around you. The light is you.
That light is there, you just have to believe in it, trust it and let it guide you. And that’s what I’m gonna do…